Wednesday, November 22, 2006

I Feel like dying now..
Nothing feels worse than to have your heart ripped open
and and left in the dark?? i think...
all of the sudden felt so Alone..like how i use to felt...
Don't think things will be the same any more for me...
I feel so Lifeless..now...
The biggest fear i ever had..is to confide in my own fear..of losing something
which i tried with all my heart to bind it tight with me.
Sometimes i ask myself.what exactly is wrong with me...
i feel different from the rest...
it always happend...
i was so used to be alone
until now...and than now....
I dont blame anything for this to happen but only myself...
i deserve this Pain and agony...im born with it i guess
i feel that lonely past me taking over again...so fast...
its over whelming....
you led me out of loneliness and to make me fall deeper into darkness...
if i can I'll just die now...
but i cant be so irresponsible?
I got to do whats best for me...
Im sure about that...
no point crying now..when everything is over..in like 5 min...
its past...i live in the present...
How many imes do i have to change myself..before i can finally settle down!...
Screw myself la..
I missed beng happy for a long time...
i hate happiness..it takes great pain to achieve it...
Im meant to be that lonely i guess...Locked in the dark...
im so Literaturistic and Dramatic....
I want to Fail My O's..i got this feeling i dont know why...
I just want to.....
I feel so so so so so terrible now....
i shall use dust to cover my injuries....
Until than...

Wei Cheng is here,
MaxiIsCrazy tried to smile on 5:36 AM