Want To Try Dying This Once? Ippen Shindemiru? Hateful Vengeance- Heart On Fire -

Sunday, December 10, 2006

It's Been Long since i last posted here...
Forgive my absence for the past few days...
I've Been Emotionally Unstable Myself
hopefully this blog wont be left aside to collect dust...
Cos i really like it alot...
Made by a special Someone =) ( you know who you are)
Never Changing Blogskin... XD

Just Recently... a few days back than..
i was crashed by a motorbike..
thank god i wasnt dead...
I fought with my closest friend..
and i ran out to the road at orchard road....
got hit at my back...
now my whole back is aching..i cant even sleep properly
or sit properly or even stand properly la..

Doctor Says i have to rest..for a PERIOD of time..
WHich means no more Tango and Ball Room Dancing
..for me anymore...until i recover...
i cant la...i cant accept this la..
and ive been hanging quite loosely to someone now...
i really dont know what to do...
to let go or not to...
by letting go...I will kill myself..i think...
but..by not to letting go..im being selfish...
so the best is to disappear for good...
and hide all my injuries all in the dust

My heart is so Confuse...
infact...it is the first time in my life that
i couldnt differentiate things clearly in my brain...
the accident....the relationship....family probs..
I Might as well hang myself to death...
but than again no...
so many things havent do...

Now is December 11 8:48am....
i took 3 panadol..cos my back hurts so much and i
think im having a fever...
i think i'll just engross myself into depression
and ignore everything else in this world...
Just me myself and darkness..
Not letting anyone into my world..
I'm scared le la...
so scared until i can wake up and cry at night..
and shiver in my blanket...
Why would i want this kind of life...

Perhaps im to emotional??
i can just (gesad) go eat shit and die**
now i need to go out...
to do something...
not telling you what..
Till i write again..

[[MaxiIsDepressed]],

MaxiIsCrazy tried to smile on 4:40 PM

--Death Sentence----Jigoku Shoujo--

O' Pitiful Shadow Bound In Darkness
Looking down upon people and causing them pain
A Soul Drowned In Sinful Karma
Want to try dying this once?

Ippen Shindemiru?

|He The Lucifer|

*Name:--Max--
*Age:--16--
*From:--Singapore--
*Job:--PastaMania--
*Loving:--Sean , Garry , Gib , YC , Valerie , Ashley and Jessica--
*Not Forgetting:--Fu Xiang --
*Bdae:--5 July--

|Hated Present|

O' pitiful Shadow Bound In Darkness... Looking down upon people and causing them pain... A Soul Drowned In Sinful Karma.. Want to try dying this once?

|Painful Past|

Hidden Memories... Hateful Vengeance...

|Minions|

Garry
Yuan long
Orion
Kimberle
Valerie
Su Kheng
Benji
Wei Cong
Eileen
Zeng Jing
Hafiz
Ivan
Brandon
Ashley
Carol
Esther
Delbin
Jeremy C
Brenda
Nadzirah
Regina
Wen Sheng
Si Ping
Fauzi
Evon
Hui Min
Holden
DickSon
Shi Hui
Min Kai
Xiao Fu
Holden
Melissa
Andrew
Gerald
Duane

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